weaving our way to Texas one connection at a time

Hello, Love :)

I apologize for my absence.

When I started this blog, I had intentions of posting every day. I look forward to when I do.

I shared recently that my mission and vision was too big to share from the small screen of an old iphone. Well, I am uber excited to announce that I finally have my laptop back!

So, now, I am going to send out rockets of desire for mobile wifi. Having to travel to a McDonalds, a Starbucks, or a library to connect online has been my next level of challenge that I am ready to alleviate :)

So, having said all of that...

We had a huge shift in our journey.

After 3 weeks of free roaming Oregon, connecting with people, places, and experiences, we got called to speak at Rethinking Everything (a huge alternative life conference) in Texas.

I am going to speak on living nomadically, the internal journey and the physical specifics.

I know that this is an incredible opportunity to connect with my people, to reach further. But, like BurntWoodsStock, I have no idea the depths and breadths this experience will reach.

I just know I need to get there.

So, this has taken my trust journey to a whole new level.

In retrospect, I am seeing how taking off for Oregon was kinda easy. We had the gas money. We just had to show up.

This has been a different experience altogether. We didn't have the gas. We had no idea the exact "hows" to this experience, just that we were going to continue to do hair ropes wherever we could to fund our gas and conference stay (hotel room share stay).

So, so far we have made it from Newport, Oregon back down the coast to San Diego. We left there yesterday and are currently in Arizona, with enough gas to get to the Texas border.

So many times, I have felt the panic start to rise. Once or twice, I even had to accept the fact that maybe getting to the conference might not be the end result.

And then the next thing unfolded before us, paving the way.

We are almost there, and I know we will make it. However it will happen, it will.

This has been a HUGE journey of expansion. I felt it when we entered Encinitas again, and I noticed how much I had grown in our journey.

I feel deeper connected than ever.

You know what else I have been really realizing recently?

I am my hero.

All those people I looked up to for living so deeply, so authentically, so connected, so sacred. The wise women, the shamans, the earth people.

I am one of them.

This is deeply fulfilling for me.

Everywhere I go, I am reminded of this.

Everywhere we go, I speak with people. I connect deeply with people. I find my people.

And that is incredible.

But a part of my journey recently has been really being aware of how much I love myself.

I have been flushing out some bits still. There is a Pink song where she talks about feeling

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way, it's all good", It didn't slow me down
Mistaken, Always second guessing
Under estimated, Look, I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than, less than perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me.

Wow, it triggers me every time, even just sharing the lyrics with you here.

Underestimated is the gut kicker.

I never really believed in my self, in the deeper part of me that I longed to embody but was afraid to do so and fail.

Now, I am so deeply connected, and it allows me unfold so deeply and simply with the people I connect with in our journeys.

My people. They are everywhere.

Community builders. Authentic livers. Creatives. Sacreds. Soul sisters and soul brothers.

Be still my heart.

I feel so acutely aware of the web of us that I am a part of.

I am overjoyed to travel and connect personally with people, to have new connections in communities around the country.

I feel this global community unfolding one pocket at a time. I feel myself heading in a direction to impact the world.

I feel myself being capable of this huge epic calling in life. To gather people and create spaces that reach to heal and nourish the world.

I am not longer afraid. I am not afraid of the fire. I know that I am the embodiment of the phoenix. I am that which I was afraid of.

Now, I am not afraid.

And my whole life and world (my little family, my bigger family, my tribe) are all a reflection of this.

We are all stepping into our power, more deeply connected and loving, more an expression of abundance.


So, here I am. In Sedona, Arizona. A beautiful, incredible little artsy community (like none I have ever seen!) with massive red rock plateau backdrops, inviting the mysterious, opening up the space in my life to accept the abundance that is swirling all around and accessible if we can be open enough.

That is what this journey is all about for me. Opening up. Expanding. Trusting. Connecting to Source.

I want to invite you to step into this giant hug. I want to find new ways to connect with you. I am on Facebook, and I am here, and I have a few e-mails.

How best do I connect with you, beloved reader?

How best do I enfold you in this massive, and yet deeply personal project and vision?

To what depths do you want to be involved?

I have been feeling drawn toward business. But it has not unfolded the way I was previously attempting. I think I am meant to find the ways to make this my life's work.

I know that finding ways to gather us together and stay connected feels like the best first step.

And I am craving dialogue from you. I have a lot to say, and I have replayed and refined my ideas for years. I want to hear you, often, constantly. I would love to create a space that makes symbiotic dialogue easy.

That is what I was hoping for with this blog space. I wanted people to be able to comment. I am worried that the comment-ability is not easy. I want to adjust that.

Also, I have a Facebook group that has been as neglected as this blog, unfortunately. But it is chocked full of soulful community deliciousness. It is called Being Tribe. Please feel free to come find it if you want to be a part of community dialogue.

In addition to sharing my big heart journey here and connecting with beloveds on Facebook, my other big internet experience has been requesting donations to fund our journeys.

It has been that the big heart donations people have gifted us have catapulted us into a much further trajectory than it seemed possible.

My wish list manifestation list is shared in the sidebar, and all donations go toward whatever is most salient at the time of receiving.

I have been spending some depth time wondering over requesting donations. I have been loving weaving hair ropes for people along our journey.

And I am feeling drawn toward wanting to offer my e-book "Whole Family Learning" to people who donate.

Once I get Microsoft Office Student again, I have a plethora of e-book and e-course ideas I would love to share.

Please, please, let me know what you are interested in hearing more about from me. I would love to share more about it. I would love to offer a fair energy exchange for donations - whatever you feel called toward, be it my most sincere gratitude, an e-book, some time to connect, some listening while you process, a personalized e-mail to you about some subject you want to know more about.

Please be in touch with me if you feel inclined to donate monetarily and have room for me to connect in your life.

All my love,
V

This is my life

Drumming has a deep sacred place in my soul, especially when coupled with fire and water. 

The evening before last, I sat back in my chair and said "this is my life."

Whenever I find myself in that "this is my life" space, it is interwoven with a deep knowing and acknowledgment that my external is aligned with my internal. 

I know I am on the right path. 

I have traveled many journeys in my life. I am clear on when something is right. 

This is so right. 

Not right as in objectively right, like "right or wrong for people", but oh so right for me. 

And coming up here (finally!) and being here is oh so right. 

I have been needing this green nourishment for a great many years. 

And I have been needing to be a brave mama. 

I stepped into the fire.

And I had spent so much time preparing myself so I could walk on fire and not get burned. I was so afraid of getting burned. 

And when I stepped off the ledge, took that leap of faith, trusted that a net would appear or wings would sprout, I never knew that none of that even applied. 

Because I am a pheonix. I AM the fire. The fire I was afraid of was me. 

But somehow I had forgotten me. I didn't know who I was. I thought I was a kitten, meek and afraid of getting singed. 

I am a pheonix. I am bold and powerful.

I am that which I feared. 

And this is my life. 

Soft + bold. 

Pure power. 

Gently and fearfreefully exploring my new way, guided by my heart. 

Connecting with beloveds, like the Eco Womb family, and new kindreds in the brave new world we are exploring. 

Learning the layout of this new land one need at a time :)

Any day that starts out with the kind of chocolate that is good for the tastebuds and for the soul and good for the earth, is a day I want to be a part of :)

This is a local organic chocolate company next door to our storage place. 

We found the local resource center which was a funny little bookstore with not a lot of connections that would help us. 

Then we found the local library. I have a special place in my heart for libraries, since the Encinitas library was like a home to us with its love and coziness and beauty. 

And we went to a local food co-op that felt like hippy heaven. I have never seen so many dreads, flowing earth colored clothing, happy cloth-bummed babies in one place. I couldn't soak it in deep enough. 

And we ended up running into our beloved Eco Womb family there who told us about a concert in the park. So after eating, we all headed to the park. 

Well, my little troupe ended up at a little amphitheater in front of the giant Shakespeare theater this town is known for, partaking in some wild drumming, a sexy saxophone, and a soulful cello. 

The kids were dancing. My soul was soaking in the richness of the music and the deeply earthy Oregon people. 

And when it ended, we walked down to the park and found our friends. 

The park was so green with tall tall trees so thick and... Just nourishing. Everything about Oregon is nourishing me. 

The kindness and earthiness of the people, the quaint little mountain town called Ashland, the green mountains, the big lake. 

Nourishment, nourishment, nourishment. 

Rehydrating this dehydrated mama. 

I wasn't made for the desert. 

I am an earthy fish. I need verdant greens, rich browns, and lots of water. 

Speaking of water. Look at this creek that runs through Lithia Park. 

There are steps down to it, inviting play and exploration. 

And the kids did. 

To see more pictures, feel free to visit the Instagram hashtags #oregonfinally and #lithiapark. 

You may remember my barefoot picture from our time in Encinitas, at Cottonwood Creek Park. 

There is a new Oregon barefoot pic in town. 

My loves, I wish for you all the hydration and nourishment your soul needs <3

Love you,

V